Chiron & The Subconscious Invitation to Heal
Chiron in Leo gave 1992 kids a rough time with self esteem, ego, and confidence; mine was in the 19 degrees-- 3rd House. The House Chiron shows up in will give details of where the Chiron wound will strike hardest. What is Chiron in astrology?
There are moments in Life where despite our best efforts at being human, we are guided by our hidden emotional pains, which create deeper emotional wounds from this hiding place-through our subconscious led actions. Chiron in Astrology shows us where the hidden place of past hurts lie in our Natal Chart. If we learn how to master the key that Chiron brings, we can use this energy to open the perspective of another person with the same wound and that, in turn, also helps us see our related situation in a different light.
As the second of 6 children, I saw my Chiron placement play out within the dynamics of my siblings and my self confidence with my peers (3H). The truly weird part of this placement for me though, is that my mother has her Sun conjunct my Chiron, off by 1 degree(20). My mother was the biggest blow to my ego, and taught my siblings how to treat me too. It's been a transformational journey of expansion and growth in my emotional intelligence, as I've learned how to love them through rejection and contempt to my authentic being. Only by hleping my friends with kids, or my friends with similar parents, was I able to become more understanding about the reason why people behave this way, and I was able to stop taking it personal. This opened the door I held shit for so long. It allowed me to find my voice amongst my new peers and be the person I have known I can be, in my mind's eye.
What does Chiron mean in Astrology? Chiron is the satellite that helps us identify where our early traumas were formed. This is where the subconscious stores the trauma that is unspoken. If we aren't aware of how much power we give our subconscious, we might end up repeating patterns that won't allow us to grow. When we are able to shed light to the subconscious and work on integrating our shadow, we are able to open the door to a new life, one we can consciously choose to use for it's full potential, so our highest self can shine through our actions.
When you look at your own negative behaviors and your reactions to the consequences, you can start to heal this part of yourself by being conscious. You will usually find this healing in a situation with another person that might be able to open up to you about that very thing you are dealing with. Sometimes, it's the only way to look at ourselves honestly. The things that hurt to look at most about our past are the sharp moments that shape us in the ways we operate from--within our subconscious plane, and then create similar instances in our present. We do this until we learn differently and resolve the root issue and move forward with Life, through different reactions.The different reaction is the key!
In my experience, I was unable to let go of the hurt I felt regardig my family, until I created my own, through my friendships, which was also difficult, because 3H is friendships. I had to let go of my pride and ego about who I thought I was and the world thinks of me, and started to be expression, like Leo asks of us. The healing came from deep converstions with another Libra woman who is a few years younger than I. She hasn't started to act on her full potential for fear of critizism or chastizing from her previous life. It felt way too familiar to not take this as an oportunity and listen to her words of advice about how I am able to improve my own life. By taking action on her advice, she was able to see the change within me and immidietly started the change within herself. Her famiy and old friends are losing grasp of the mental blocks she had due to them and I have stepped into who I know I am, to begin buiLding on that mountain.
When you can look at your past wounds and the developments that come from those pains, you are able to make conscious decisions. They seem to present themselves in the people around us, as fractal moving images of the life we once experienced, and still hold repercussions from. Some of these issues are left untouched by many in life, as they involve integrating the pains of our past through the service of helping another heal from the same wound.
Chiron, The Wounded Healer. This asteroid allows us to use emotions as a key to heal the wounds of our past, with another Energy Vessel (human) that is experiencing the same type of pain you had no control over before, by becoming aware and making a different choice that the ones the subconscious has ready for us. Find out what house and sign your chiron is in, if you werent born in 1992 .